After giving the site all of my information, I’ve got to pick a name, and it takes me exactly two seconds to come up with one. Once I’ve got it set up, I’m able to go to her live video and watch her as she games. I don’t know what she’s playing, but as I watch her, I try to absorb every detail. There’s not much she’s giving away with where she’s at, but I guess that’s good. She doesn’t want strange weirdos messaging her. Then I pause and wonder if I’m the strange weirdo. Whatever, I’m not going to think about that. I’ve found her, and that’s the most important thing.
As I go to the comment section, I read through some of the people already on the chat.
BroCoder: Nice tits!
CobraCode: Don’t mind watching a girl game as long as she’s got a rack.
Overlord: Take your top off!
“What the fuck?” Rage like I’ve never felt flows through me, and suddenly I want to burn the Internet to the ground.
BroCoder: Sent you a private message!
I watch as Lexi glances at the chat and then a few of the messages disappear.
“Thanks for coming on today, I’m going to show you how to get through this realm and find the hidden axe you need to complete the next level,” she says, completely ignoring them, and then I see her private messages turn off.
She glances back to the screen, and for a second, I think she’s looking right at me, but I know that’s not possible. There are a few more comments that come through but nothing else about the way she looks. Does this shit happen to her all the time?
Since I can’t message her directly, I’m relegated to the chat. How the fuck am I supposed to talk to her?
“While I’m going through the start-up, I just wanted to let you know I’m turning on the subscription option on my page if you’d like to join. With the subscription you can get early access to live videos, videos that I don’t release to the public, and you can also send me gifts through my wish list.”
This is all so much that I’m not sure where to begin.
I want to punch myself in the face. Hi? I fucking sent her hi. Ugh, I’m an idiot.
“Hey, babe, thanks for joining.” She smiles at the screen and waves. “I love having gamer girls on here with me.”
“Goddamn it.” I drop my head on my desk and realize what I’ve done. “Great, now she thinks I’m a chick.”
The comment section moves fast, and I can’t catch all of what people are saying. I’ve got to figure out a way to stand out, or at least get her attention. I can’t just ask her where she lives because that makes me a creep.
RunawayBridesmaid: Can you do private videos?
“And here you want to be sure and load up on ammo,” she says before she glances at the chat. “Do I do private chats? Umm, I don’t know. Maybe?” She smiles, and I see that it’s a little forced. “Maybe for the right price.” Then I see her hesitate a second and then wink at the screen. I have the urge to laugh because she’s obviously never done that before. How is her awkward wink so fucking cute?
Then the chat goes crazy with all kinds of comments, some disgusting and some offering money to go private now. Who are all these fucking assholes? Then I remind myself that I’m one of them, trying to get her alone.
Deciding I need to make this happen, I go over to the place to donate gifts. I fill out the info and then send her coins, which somehow translate to dollars on the gaming app. Once that’s done, there’s no place to leave a message, and her DMs are turned off. All I can do is hope that she sees the coins and invites me to a private chat.
In the meantime, I’m going to sit here and try not to come out of my skin. Because seeing her on here with other men fawning after her is driving me fucking insane.
Time drags by as I play, and I’m freaking thankful I turned off private messages. My chat box blew up when I said I might do private chats. I’m sure I was awkward when I did the whole wink thing, but going off how many questions exploded over it, maybe I’m not too bad at flirting.
I’m not sure what RunawayBridesmaid might want to chat with me about, but I’ve heard about some other streamers being asked to give private lessons. That’s normally for things like Magic or some card games, but I’m sure I could give a few tricks to first-hand shooters. That’s all I pretty much do with these videos anyway.